The most difficult decision my mind will have to make is one that I battle with an untold numerous amount of times a day– the decision to just do it. Whatever it is, the struggle is ever present and is a fight I lose more often than I should. Important and fulfilling tasks are the most difficult to complete. The level of difficulty is only increased by my unwillingness to start the next step.

I find that the most arduous undertakings I assign myself are only strenuous because I fight with myself before I take every step forward. Almost anything I find to do otherwise is just an excuse, a way to escape climbing that next step.

I’ve discovered that there is a fear present that I am not yet able to identify. A fear of failure? perhaps a fear of success. It may be that I fear what I fear because I don’t know what I fear and when I find out what it is I fear I’ll just think it silly and not fear it any longer.

I do fear posting this, but I’m going to post it because I need to defeat my fears. I need to reach for that next step, and the one after that. Maybe I fear that there will be nothing beyond the next step once I reach it….